I cried in my dreams all night. I woke up to a reality full of reminders of my continued failures. I am crushed in sadness and disappointment. I hope I don’t lose the respect I thought I had earned for myself at work. But I have lost their confidence. And mine.

i don’t think you’ve lost their confidence, love. you are your own worst enemy.
Everybody slips a day or so on the downswing but the bright side is that you will rise to fight another day. Keep it up dood!!!