I feel like such an old potato. Here I am with blue sky still visible and I’m in my bed trying to go to sleep. Today’s energy is utterly gone. Battery at 0%. I tried to entertain myself with preseason football but it was boring. Then I tried to game on my computer, and after I had done my garrison maintenance in WoW, I was through. It’s coming up on the last day of a particularly intense week, and my brain is mushafied.
The same is true of Amanda. We’ve barely talked. I guess we’re just too out of it. We did a good amount of discussion last night, so it’s not like there is a pattern of disconnect. She is putting in her first 40 hours in over 2 months. I can’t imagine how exhausted she must be.
I think I’m just out of gas. I’m sitting here thinking some negative thoughts. I feel isolated. I have alienated people who were at one time close to me. My parents are halfway across the country. My best friend (other than Amanda) lives 1,200 miles away. I don’t have anyone at work I can talk to, but maybe that is a good thing. They’re pretty stupid. But anyway, I’m trying to get away from this feeling by going to sleep. Hopefully this doesn’t fuck up my schedule.