I’ve had some lazy days before, but TODAY was a level of slouchatude that I have rarely embraced in all my life. Both Amanda and I worked pretty much all day yesterday doing chores. We celebrated by driving up to the top of Mt. Helix in La Mesa to watch the sunset above the city. It was hazy, and surprisingly crowded up there, but we had a good time. We drank coffee and stayed up way too late watching movies.
Today, on the other hand…
The only thing we managed to do was get to Target and buy some things for the boy, since we have him next week starting Monday evening. Other than that, I watched the Padres lose today to the Cardinals, and I tried to nap but just laid in bed with my eyes closed wishing I could. I think maybe this is a communal decision to just let everything go today and try to recharge the energy battery with a very busy week coming up. I know I will be ready to go tomorrow.
I haven’t been able to focus on anything for any decent amount of time. ADD hitting me today. Fuck, it’s taken me 30 minutes just to write these two paragraphs. I need to just sit back and let go. I’m stressing about not doing anything.
I must have used your energy for today. I’m still awake and I have to be up around 6:15…fuck
Oh bummer. I had a pretty restless night, but at least I did manage to sleep for a bit. I hope you found some peace.
Pffffbt-I took a klonopin at 2 because I couldn’t sleep. 4 hours and I’m already back in bed with a snoring dog. I’m pooped.
Snoring dog is the name of my new band.
That awesome. I just woke up from a weird dream, heart pounding, anxiety riddled and now reach from a klonopin when I usually don’t until 1….fuck
I’m home from work with some pretty serious chemical depression. Sounds like we are both struggling today.
Very much. I took my meds, checked the mail and I’m right back in bed with May right next to me. Fucking sucks. Tired of chucking hopes into the abyss while I dangle my feet over the edge.
Yes. I sympathize. When the chemicals are wrong, there’s not a kit than can be done. It just sucks. I hope you manage to hang on today.
You too. Text me if you need too. I’m just playing mahjong on my phone