Amanda is off to her old friend’s house for some girl time. This leaves me here in the apartment to go about enforcing some good solitary behaviors. I need to be able to be just by myself and not freak out. I used to have a very hard time with this, especially when I was in that one bedroom apartment a few years ago. I would get very anxious and sad and even break into tears. I think I’ve come a long way from that point, but there is still work to be done.
This weekend will be about rebuilding the franchise. I will embrace a healthy attitude about my life and manage my responsibilities without wavering. I am down to my last strike here, and I can’t strike out. Not an option. So I will promote positive activities and thoughts as I spend my alone time occupied with things to do. I intend to get on the elliptical and burn some calories. I want to feverishly blog and keep myself present and aware of my emotions and thoughts. I will take time to relax, and attempt to meditate, but monkey mind and I are currently in open war, and he is winning. I will also spend some time with my parents as they are a beneficial part of my support system.
I have had this stomach bug for a few days. Real food is only making it worse. I’m down to chicken broth and jello. It’s going to be the worst food weekend of my life. Easily.
I’ll check in later.