I have done much of the housework for the upcoming week, and I know Amanda will be surprised when she sees it. It’s the least I can do for her as she tries to find normalcy in her recovery. I have provided much turbulence to that goal of late. 

But I’m rectifying my obstinate position and becoming more of an open book. My processes all exposed and laid bare for all to see. Humility. It is utterly humbling to tear yourself down to the components and reassess. This is what I have been doing for the last several days. It’s hard work, to be sure, but also hugely rewarding. I feel like I have taken several large steps in an better direction since I nearly blew up my life. 

I’m looking forward to having Amanda home today. I can’t wait to give her a big hug and welcome her to a happy house. A clean and ready house too. A place where she can just relax, open her creative mind, and explore. The best healing is done from within the mind, constituting a change in both perception and direction. After she gets through treatment, I know she will still have some work to do to get herself ready for work. 

Well blog, I’m feeling good today. I have been highly useful so far. More updates to come.