It’s the morning of my last day off, and I feel really great about it. I’ve had a very good weekend taking care of myself and the house. I am sending a clear message that the pattern is changing, and a promising future lies ahead.
There’s not much left for me to do labor wise today. The work I want to do is mental in nature. I have begun setting boundaries and goals and succeeding in adhering to them. Even if I’m feeling lazy or tired, I still need to crank out a mile on the elliptical. Even if my monkey mind is running rampant, I still need to stop, breathe, and focus. I managed to meditate myself to sleep last night when my brain was all jacked-up from fantasy football. I went to bed at a normal time AND woke up at a normal time… circadian cycle officially back to normal! It has been a weekend of small triumphs working towards a new and prosperous road ahead.
Today Amanda is coming home and I am excited for her to see how committed I am to making things right. I want to show her I can be strong and stable, and more than capable of handling my responsibilities. I was really letting things slide before, but I won’t be guilty of complacency again. Most importantly, I feel genuinely proud of the strides I’ve made the last few days as it pertains to my willpower and motivation. I have a sense of satisfaction and accomplishment.
Going forward, I will continue to test my willpower and control my mind to embark on a new age of mental discipline. I am very happy with the direction things are going.