Regardless

It’s time to go into just how I plan to handle my situation. I have to very stigmatizing diagnoses that will alienate me utterly from the population. I must accept this fact and move forward knowing who I am and what sort of life I want to try to lead. I am resolved to make the most of my situation and pursue the advancement of my future in a positive direction. I don’t need anyone else with me in order to make that journey, and do so with happiness and pride. I have been looking for the answer to how I feel outside of myself for too long, and need to come to peace with this life I have relegated myself to. This is what is best for me, to live honestly with myself and forge a future I can be proud of. There is no one else I owe this to more than myself, and I have neglected it for a long time. I am taking strides to complete the idea of who I want to be. It’s not going to happen all at once, but I will make incremental steps towards improving my life and getting to a healthier place. If. because of bipolar disorder and herpes, I am left to make that discovery alone, I understand and accept that fact. I am the one who put myself in this situation, and I alone will be accountable for it. I need to find happiness regardless, somewhere in the life I have left. I know I can, and I am working towards it every day. I take small steps forward. I know who I am and I am proud to be him. I may be alone the rest of my life, but I’m okay with that.

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