It’s time to go into just how I plan to handle my situation. I have to very stigmatizing diagnoses that will alienate me utterly from the population. I must accept this fact and move forward knowing who I am and what sort of life I want to try to lead. I am resolved to make the most of my situation and pursue the advancement of my future in a positive direction. I don’t need anyone else with me in order to make that journey, and do so with happiness and pride. I have been looking for the answer to how I feel outside of myself for too long, and need to come to peace with this life I have relegated myself to. This is what is best for me, to live honestly with myself and forge a future I can be proud of. There is no one else I owe this to more than myself, and I have neglected it for a long time. I am taking strides to complete the idea of who I want to be. It’s not going to happen all at once, but I will make incremental steps towards improving my life and getting to a healthier place. If. because of bipolar disorder and herpes, I am left to make that discovery alone, I understand and accept that fact. I am the one who put myself in this situation, and I alone will be accountable for it. I need to find happiness regardless, somewhere in the life I have left. I know I can, and I am working towards it every day. I take small steps forward. I know who I am and I am proud to be him. I may be alone the rest of my life, but I’m okay with that.
Regardless
by ssnri in Mental Illness, Rant, Status Updates and tagged Anxiety, Bipolar, Depression, Emotions, Introspection, Life, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Relationships, Self, Thoughts