Well here I am finding all sorts of exciting ways to process what is going on with me emotionally. I find that the act of putting that to music to be highly therapeutic and cathartic. I don’t really know what story I’m trying to tell here, but it is spun towards a reality that now seems bleak, distant and, ultimately, unreachable. A cookie jar on a shelf that is many years of growth away from being able to reach. Maybe there will never be a time when I do get there, or maybe it will happen in no time at all. There is no predicting the future, there is only dealing with the reality that is presently occupying the “now.” At this present moment, I don’t have much hope at all, which I think is reflected in the composition.
These albums are pretty much appreciated by no one who they should affect, and only end up substituting several paragraphs of introspective analysis. It’s a primitive, visceral discourse in melody, lyric and rhythm that I seem to be the only one who finds that medium relevant, expressive and empowering. As per my usual criteria, these are meant to be 1 hour 20 minute max playlists (fits on a single CD). I do have some sort of structure going on here, but it is quite chaotic, and darting from one abstract representation of pain to an ache of sorrow and glazed over with a sickly sweet sugar coating that doesn’t do enough to hide the foulness underneath.
Album: Deflatacated Marshmallow
Length: 77 Minutes
- Fastlove – Gerorge Michael
- Beds Are Burning – Midnight Oil
- Mr. Blue Sky – Electric Light Orchestra
- Once – Pearl Jam
- Animal – Def Leppard
- All Over You – Live
- Heartbeat City – The Cars
- Broken Wings – Mr. Mister
- Fragile – Sting
- Don’t Get Me Wrong – The Pretenders
- The Promise – When In Rome
- Because The Night – 10,000 Maniacs
- Somebody To Love – Queen
- Feels So Good – Chuck Mangione
- Baby, Come To Me – Patti Austin & James Ingram
- What You Won’t Do For Love – Bobby Caldwell
- Harden My Heart – Quarterflash
- King Of Pain – The Police
Neurochemically Challenged 