In light of recent turbulence in my world, I’ve tried keeping a better feel on the introspective pulse of regular function. I’m also aware that I’m subjecting myself to an unusually high level of stress and stimuli in an effort to combat creeping depression. I see all the elements like a confluence of rivers forming a mighty torrent… somehow sweeping my brain away downstream or buried in silt. Nevertheless, I still pry open the inner vault of the self and try to understand things happening to and from it. I feel I’m better at some things I used to be terrible at, but still lacking in quite a few areas. What are my true motivations for my actions? Why do I open myself to every nice person that walks by? Why am I such an insatiable prick? What does being understood feel like?

I sit here in my snowman jammies and wonder if expression really helps, or if it just provides a forum for things to garner attention for a time? I think the more ways I can ventilate this shit-smelling barn the better. Activities like the Mood Albums I do are helpful because they give me the chance to craft a narrative in a medium not often used. I don’t think myself anything other than expressive, curious and expositional about my own feelings and path forward. So as of the last album when I was feeling a fair bit gooier than I am now, I needed to revisit my good friend pain, loneliness and rekindle an ongoing desire to see things change.

Tracks from the previous Mood Album: Spatulas & Bandaids are highlighted in yellow. I have pulled from other wishy-washy type albums as well that have been generated in the past. I didn’t go “all in” on the squish, mind you, but it’s there. As you can see, there has been some pretty severe turnover in the track-list. I have listed the previous two iterations below so the whole three-album progression can be seen clear.

Mood Album (v. 3): Splattercake Conjunctivitis

Length: 74 minutes

1. Mad World – Tears for Fears
2. If This Is It – Huey Lewis & The News
3. Walking On Broken Glass – Annie Lennox
4. Don’t Do Me Like That – Tom Petty & The Heartbrakers
5. Pamela – Toto
6. Walk Away – Joe Walsh
7. I Wouldn’t Want To Be Like You – The Alan Parsons Project
8. The Voice – The Moody Blues
9. Move On – George Michael
10. Back In Black – AC/DC
11. Falling Away From Me – Korn
12. (SIC) – Slipknot
13. Waves – Blondfire
14. Straight To My Heart – Sting
15. All Over You – Live
16. Let’s Go
17. Don’t Get Me Wrong – The Pretenders
18. More Than Words – Extreme

Mood Album (v. 2): Spatulas & Bandaids

Length: 73 minutes

1. Mad World – Tears For Fears
2. Once – Pearl Jam
3. Animal – Def Leppard
4. All Over You – Live
5. In Thee – Blue Öyster Cult
6. No One Like You – Scorpions
7. Mr. Blue Sky – Electric Light Orchestra
8. The Voice – The Moody Blues
9. One Thing Leads To Another – The Fixx
10. Heartbeat CIty – The Cars
11. Fragile – Sting
12. Help Is On Its Way – Little River Band
13. Don’t Get Me Wrong – The Pretenders
14. The Promise – When In Rome
15. Best Of My Love – Eagles
16. Baby, Come To Me – Patti Austin & James Ingram
17. King Of Pain – The Police
18. Move On – George Michael

Mood Album (v. 1): Deflatacated Marshmallow

Length: 77 Minutes

1. Fastlove – Gerorge Michael
2. Beds Are Burning – Midnight Oil
3. Mr. Blue Sky – Electric Light Orchestra
4. Once – Pearl Jam
5. Animal – Def Leppard
6. All Over You – Live
7. Heartbeat City – The Cars
8. Broken Wings – Mr. Mister
9. Fragile – Sting
10. Don’t Get Me Wrong – The Pretenders
11. The Promise – When In Rome
12. Because The Night – 10,000 Maniacs
13. Somebody To Love – Queen
14. Feels So Good – Chuck Mangione
15. Baby, Come To Me – Patti Austin & James Ingram
16. What You Won’t Do For Love – Bobby Caldwell
17. Harden My Heart – Quarterflash
18. King Of Pain – The Police