It’s the title of this part of my life adventure. It’s a time for rebuilding, regrowing, renewing. It’s progress, towards a complete picture of the self. To be the master of The Ghost. I sincerely hope you stay tuned to find out what this entails, and where we have yet to go.
The project began 03-12-14, and expires annually
The project will cost me 75 lbs of my flesh.
The Project will establish stability and longevity for my mental health
The Project will build a life for me, with a job, and a permanent place to live
The project is for myself, by myself, alone to be won
More details to come. But the countdown has begun, even if the story has not.
A series of priority-goals are going to be established at reasonable intervals to give structure to a more long-term prosperous living position. And for the immediate future, I have a color-coded spreadsheet with achievable tasks and a record of tasks completed. Incremental steps towards success. It’s only a matter of time before I get my head out the ole butt-chute and on to better things.
In honor of Robert whom I paraphrase: Know that you went out there and gave it your “all.” You went and gave it everything you had to give, every day. You can then walk away from that KNOWING you tried your hardest. Knowing that, rest assured that things will get better over time.
I chose to live a better life. A healthier life. A different life. On my own, for 1 year. AT LEAST one year.
THE LONE BULL PROJECT
I will be finding out how to be an amazing (it’s AMAZING) person again. How to live stable, happy and alone. To be at peace, and capable of great things once more.
This encapsulates the meaning and value of the project. The timeline is 1 year, at which point the contract will be extended, or cancelled. The contract can only be VETOED with parental consultation and approval.
So, again, still more details to come. But we’re already underway.
On the verge of a big transition. Department of Rehabilitation owes me a call this week to let me know I’m enrolled and can start using the job-finding resources of MHS. Eventually, I’ll be regularly involved in programs, classes and aid from the Mental Health Services’ litany of employment related opportunities. I want to succeed, so I’m really looking forward to the chance to get back out there and make things happen. It’s been hard to be so idle for so long. I have had difficulty taking “time off” for myself, and usually struggle unless I’m actively doing something. But that will change soon friends. I’m looking forward, with glee, to this new point in my recovery. A launch-point, where many variables (still undetermined) are available for me to tinker with. My life is expanding, ever growing in opportunity, ever declining in pain and sadness. I have made progress marked by events, and I’m glad for that. I have also started losing weight and am down 10 pounds from my last doctor’s visit a few months ago. I will continue my plans for eating right, and getting some exercise once my arm is back to 100%.
I’ve officially established my independence! On this very day even!! I acquired a job since my last update, actually, about 3 weeks after I made that post, I had a full time gig. I have been saving my 40-hour-a-week paychecks since that time, and have bankrolled over 4 thousand dollars for my new fledgling life. Now, with a healthy sum of savings, and a future that’s only pointed at up, I have at last reached a plateau point. My meds have been exceptionally stable for months, with out the need for adjustment or increases of any form. I’m still going to regular therapy sessions, once every other Wednesday. I am still seeing Dr. Judge as my health care got cancelled the temp agency I work for (for now, until my ACTUAL: employer buys out my temp contract). So blog, this is a great, monumental day, with most of the back-breaking labor behind us for good. Thanks for being here through the bulk of the Lone Bull Project! Now all there is to do is stay stable, healthy and happy. No big deal, right?
I did renew the project, because I still had one goal left to meet. Finally, after 17 months, I have dropped 75 lbs and fulfilled all aspects of the original project. I am in a healthy relationship, I have unprecedented stability, I have a job, I established a fully independent self, and I lost more than 75 pounds of flesh.
I am proud to say that the Lone Bull Project is hereby concluded. My healthy habits will continue on regardless.